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TO GO ON IN
THIS WAY You know \ barely \ stripped and robbed even of the
right to something
possible here which is now humiliated too having
dropped the kid gloves and fan
and scurried away into the darkness. To go on
anyway \ watering the
succulents the wolflings in the tub the sweaters in
the drawer the ghost-becauses
bursting out of their containers because what is this
moment but the terror of
containment & heroic
scores & bills their
menace even more insulting. Dear C, where is the
petition to refuse our
delusions? To go on writing bad checks their figures
blurring together and in
this way bleed like an army of witches eating cold
cake with butter knives in
front of the open mouth of the new year. To stay warm
and listen. Dear dear,
fan the fire. Burn like
insomniac chandeliers
dripping blood on the banquet. Drop eggs into their
caviar and Moët flutes
their glassy ice age of blinded-by-whiteness.
Deferred future bombs! LADY
SNOWBLOOD FOR PRESIDENT Bloom
magenta vengeance from a molten
softness. To melt and refuse. To breathe and refuse.
To weep and refuse. I
can’t remember how to write a poem. To write bad
documents and refuse. To see
what’s coming and refuse it. If you want
to express support for
the audit to identify conflicts of interest there is
an email, congrel@gao.gov,
through which they are tracking people who are urging
support. DECOLONIAL
AUDIT OF U.S. HISTORY FOR
PRESIDENT Dear
future-B, when I was pregnant
with you I had a dream: When I lifted my skirt I could
shoot people with my
vagina. It was a great asset given the circumstances—a
card game, a room full
of armed citizens. To express is to go beyond the
body. Dear Tree,
at the stroke of midnight
on my 40th birthday, as if called upon by
the ceremony of
existential nausea, I barfed. It was a strange and
somehow soothing glory.
Earlier that night, the baby barfed on my sweater. At
the clinic the next day
she exploded so-to-speak beyond her diaper on my lap
and up my sweater and down
my pants and drip drip drip on the linoleum floor.
They gave me scrubs to
change into and I realized the truth of such
defilement, the love that made it perhaps
the most perfect expression. To express
is to exceed our borders.
It is also a conveyance. I express milk for my baby
and I express barf for history
and its rhymes and in the void in my body where the
baby had been is a wish for
rhizomatic intelligence because it is a force beyond
the formalization of that
which has always been there in the so-called great
hall (Hi it’s
hell (with tiny doors to
nowhere)) where the despot in you from the seat of
absolutes exhorts in the assailant
voice “You should be ashamed of yourself. To go on
crying in this way STOP THIS
MOMENT!” & something in
you submits. To do to do to do. It is a kind of
paralysis. Dear love, it happens,
it continues to happen, but there’s an echo (the echo
and not its source) in
that metallic stasis of another voice urging: move.
All is flux. Fuck
his lists. Fuck his supplicants. Find
your weeping people. They keep the water moving. They
live like MARGERY
KEMPE FOR PRESIDENT To cry
is life
to water the omen in this moment each teardrop a
possibility in which you might
incubate your revolutionary sentience, little golden
keys to the growing garden
doors, to have a body with its own secret sea. FUCK THE
FRESH TASTE OF FASCISM IN
THE MORNING. |
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